Well so what if love doesn't come this way now. So what if I test the waters and move on. So what if I decide to stay single for a little longer. What does it matter to anyone else? As much as I think how nice it is to be with someone else who loves you and is there for you, that is all in my future. As of this moment, this time frame, I am able to enjoy being single and alone. I don't mean to say alone like it is a bad thing, I mean to say it as a term on relationship status. I don't need someone to hold my hand, I don't need someone to know my every move, I don't need someone to be my balance. I want to be hands free, be random and off balance a little right now. Afterall, I am turning 21 in a few days (16days). I've had my space respected and I've had nice faces to meet, I am just not wanting to be 2. Yes, the company is nice especially on a boring night, but that's what your girlfriends are for and when they aren't, Sex and the City! I need to be free, explore some more, stand my own ground, understand what is best for me, figure out a few more things, and then make my table for 1 and table for 2! So let me fly, far away and be this person I want to be right now....
The beginning of my spring semester started last Thursday, Jan 7th, 2011. Two of the five days we have actually attended school. Unfortunately the wonderful Mother Nature and Jack Frost decided to make some activity and cause cancellations. One day is okay, two days is pushing it, but three days in a row is a little ridiculous. Yes I love my family, they are so fun--for so long. Doing the same thing for three days in a row with the same people is old; I hate repetition. It makes my bones cringe. Although there is repetition in a lot of things we do in life, there is usually a change of pace when you can actually break that repetition. However, these three days have been awfully hard to take a new direction when you can't even leave your driveway. Snow is wonderful, it's pretty, calming, and cold. I do not like that it causes delays though....especially this week. I am not one to sit around ever. Even when I had my wisdom teeth pulled, two days later I was still on meds and ready to leave the house; in which I did sit miserably somewhere besides my house. Also, when I had surgery in August I was able to get out two days after, while still on meds, and I went out on a motorcycle ride for goodness sake! So therefore, the only thing I guess I can do while "snowed in" is to write here on this very blog, oh and play endless amounts of Wii Bowling. An actual positive to my "lock in" is I found my old iPod, and therefore listening to some old school music! Woo, go me! I hate sitting around-I've cleaned/organized my already clean and organized room. I've done all 2 whole assignments I was given from my second day of school and even some. I gave my dog a bath and brushed him. Cleaned the rest of the house, downloaded new apps on the new iPod, won a game of poker against my parents, and read my new Glamour magazine. I even took an hour nap and ate dinner. I would say it has been a productive day at the 'Kropski' household. Oh yeah, this is also another reason why I wished I lived on my own because I would actually have a roommate that is willing to do whatever to get out of the house/apt. I am just ready to get over this snow and start my spring semester off right--oh and those days I planned on using to go visit people, ha forget it, those days will now be officially made up and oh yeah my spring break of 2 days will most likely be even more non-existent than it already is. Thank you snow day--really!
