Fading Love

Never I-
felt so sad.
I feel so alone
and your so mad.

My intentions
were of innocence.
But you act
so upset since.

Never was this
to be,
Such an obstacle
in my eyes that see.

Oblivious am I?
I suppose so,
since now I cry.

Forever on my mind,
wondering where you are.
The memories will
not be forgotten no-
matter how far.

All this awkward end
and broken hearts
will never tear
this apart.

Imma Do Me

It's the end of 2010 finally. This stressful, exhausting, emotional year is finally rearing towards an end...thank goodness. I must say with the new year in full swing I am not prepared for what 2011 has to offer. There are some many plans that are coming into the future I am unsure of how I need to handle them. For starters, it's somewhat my last semester of college, I turn 21, I'm getting closer to my dream of having a place of my own, and new relationships are starting to develop. As much as I am ready to put a cap on this year of 2010, I am not ready to pop the top on 2011. I've never felt so much like an adult and so scared to move forward in life. Unfortunately, the saying, "there is only one way, and that is up" is so true. You can only move forward because some genius has yet to invent a "back-in-time" clock yet. However, I am not sure I would like to replay some of my past... on another note, I am ready to experience the adult life I am just not sure my mind is ready to handle everything. Living stress free would be wonderful. The girls had an idea that we should all move to the beach over the summer and get away from the stress. How amazing would that be? Work at the beach, live at the beach, and be away from everyday life. Getting away from reality for a few months would satisfy my stressed out mind/body/soul. I just need to learn to live in the moment and stress about the future. It drives everyone crazy to think about tomorrow when we should be worried about today, right now, this second. My future goal for 2011 is to rejoice the moment await the future with a stress free attitude....