For a nineteen year old I feel I have grown strongly in my relationship with myself. I'm not saying that I know everything about life and have a full grip on my decision but I am confident on what I currently have made decisions on. We are always told "our future lies in our hands" and we are the ones who hold the keys; true this saying is. We can regret decisions made or we can pat ourselves on the back. Unfortunately I have regreted many decisions I've made this summer. These choices I've made have been completely followed by heart over mind. Not always is this a good idea because I am constantly battling with the two opposites. Never have I had my heart and mind work together, I think this makes things extremely difficult. Coincidently I had this battle just the other day. My mind tells me no because that's what I hear from my peers, but my heart is just jumping for joy! I'm not sure if its the thought that everyone thinks its wrong for me to go that way or if it's because I really do think it's what I want. Doing something spontanious isn't really my style but this go 'round I want to be. Why does he make me think this way? My eyes light up and my heart pounces at the thought. I want to strengthen a bit in the love. section. Ha, laugh yes because I'm still, to myself even, too young to be in love. That's why I'm not ready to develop one of those relationships. Eventually my time will come and yes, love will find me. I'm not one to seek it, I will let it find me. Cliche? No. I'm just not in a rush to be in love like some people. I have a few years to settle myself into this real world before I want someone else to fall into my picture. Neither is this selfish.