The ability to hold onto something needs effort and energy. Sometimes we have too many of priorties that take up most of that energy we have nothing left by the end of the day. Between school, tutoring, homework, studying, work, and sleep I currently have no extra energy left. I get just enough every day to fulfill just that there is hardly a social life involved.
I recently had to give up something I didn't want to give up. It's just not fair for the other person to work as hard as they do to make things right and I can't put in my part because I have no time or energy left. Its sad, yes, it's been pondering my mind for a while now I just finally realized I had to do something about it rather than sit on it. No, I didn't want to give up this relationship, I do care a lot for him, but I just wasn't being fair. Why put someone through the agony? I feel the decision I made was right though. I can't be upset forever and I can't feel sorry forever. Time is all we need. Just because I don't have time to be girlfriend doesn't mean I don't have time to be friend. I hope one day I can gain the time and energy to satisfy someone significant. I know it will happen, in time. But for now, I just can't seem to manage.