(After a long day of class I just wanted to sit down and write for once. It's been a while so excuse me if this doesn't sound too good. )
A fear of not being able to let you. Why do we have this fear that if we let go, we will never have it again? "it" pertaining to the feeling of love and acceptance. I am, one of many who is afraid of letting go of something we have had for so long, this love of another or the acceptance of someone. I fear letting this go may actually diminish something else in me. If I let this go everyone will see it and know that there is something missing in me. Sometimes I feel like people can see right through me and they know exactly whats wrong...those people amaze me. They truly understand me, as an individual and they have the power to sometimes put back in the pieces to whats missing.
Love is held together by a tight bond. True love is never broken and never destroyed. That just makes me think of love as matter, it can't be created nor destroyed. Now you might be thinking how can you NOT create love? I believe in fate, that it just happens, thingis just fall into place. You can't push love and make it something its not. That's just unlawful. A family love can definately not me create nore destroyed, no matter how angry or seperated we may get it will never be invisible. The bond here is within the blood, too hard to destroy there. I have a had time saying it but I honestly don't ever want to loose the relationship I have with my family because I'm afraid of never being let back in.
As for a love relationship, I believe it can be destroyed. Like I said you can't force it to create but it can be destroyed. I'm always afraid of letting go of these kind of relationships because my past shows that I never stay in touch after. It's like the bond has been cut forever and can never be glued back together. I'm so afraid of loosing something this good in my life because I know I will wear the emotions on my face.
For a brief summary, I'm afraid of loosing that love that comes from all directions. Although at time I may seem like I want to let go I just ask you not to. Hold my hand forever.....
